what a ride

looks like i am a blogger these days.

its not that i think every thought i have deserves to be posted and friends need to know my constant stream of thought, but the mind is fascinating and i like the idea of inviting someone into my own.

here are things that i am thinking, and things that are happening, and things that i think relate to me because of who i think i am.

God is good, and i have learned this to be true. when i am myself, i feel closest to God. think about it, He made us in His image (which is pretty rad) so, if i am pursuing passions and trusting rationality- (only to an extent, i struggle with believing rationality since the God i serve may not necessarily be rational) then i am mirroring a Holy God that holds time and all goodness in His hands. its good to have Him around.

more thoughts,

my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer about two weeks ago. shocking? yes. cancer is bad, evil, and foreign to so many. "that really sucks". Yes.

HOWEVER (hold on to your horses, bright thought . . .)

God's timing is supreme; i am unable to experience, do, go, hope, wish, and want without God elbowing Jesus on the side and saying "told ya so". He knows. He just does. So, what does that mean? I claim a love for God, I don't know how to define it, and I can not rationalize it, but it is there and though I mostly crawl through life thinking "what on earth, Lord?" he smiles at me. we are interwoven with His grace through and through. every tear he created, he knows the weight of it and the emotional weight that comes with his plan, but He is willing to carry the burden for my family and I if i am willing to let him. Refreshing.

heh. I am at starbucks reading and i can't stop waving at this little boy all bundled up in his rainy winter gear. presh, totes. (?) jenn is across the table reading. way to go jenn.

ok, i love you.

kambrie